Feeling Blessed...

I have had a bad attitude lately. I have been feeling picked on and mad that this happened to me, but recently I have realized just how blessed I am.

I have finally accepted the fact that I may never feel 100% again, I may have to take 8 medications everyday, I may have to have a standing appointment at the cardiologist, and I may have to eat "low sodium" the rest of my life. But the thing that I have finally realized is that even though I now have a crappy heart, I am still here and I have an amazing husband, two perfect little boys, and the best family ever.

My sweet mom has basically stopped everything in her life for the past three weeks, just so she can be here to do our laundry, scrub our nasty toilets, make us some dinner, or just let me cry on her shoulder. She is always willing to do whatever we need. Spencer went back to work two days this week and I didn't even have to ask her to come up and help me, she just got up each morning and drove up here so early that I wouldn't even have to make Kam breakfast on my own. She is the BEST and I don't know what I would do without her. I hope she knows how much I love and appreciate her...

Everyone has been so awesome through all this. They take Kam so he doesn't have to just sit at our house while I try and nap, they stop on their way to the grocery store just to see if we need something while they are out, they bring us treats and dinners, they call just to see how I am feeling, they are genuinely concerned and it is so nice.

We are so blessed that Spencer has a steady job and income with really good insurance. I know that the military makes me really mad sometimes, but it really is a good job. Everyone that Spencer works with is so understanding and kind and willing to give Spencer as much time as I need to get back to normal.

And last but not least, I am so blessed to have the best husband in the world. Spence has been so patient with me for the last 10 months. I was not a nice pregnant wife and I have been an even bigger pain to deal with now. Spence has had to do many things that a husband should never have to do for their wife in the past three weeks. While I was in the hospital, he was the one who would help me in the bathroom, or hold my pee bag while I brushed my teeth. Now that we are home, he has not even complained about doing house cleaning, or the grocery shopping. He has tried to find recipes for dinner that follow my new diet. He has learned how to check my blood pressure so that I don't have to worry about getting it checked. He deals with Kam when he is being difficult so I don't get too stressed. He does the laundry and empties the dishwasher before I even ask. He makes sure that I am getting out of the house and doing things that I enjoy so I don't get depressed. He rents me chick flicks and buys me the latest Hollywood gossip magazines.

I am blessed :)